Winter finally found us and the leaves are now all on the ground. Woke up at 6AM to large fluffy snowflakes falling steadily past my window which is a rarity in south Mississippi. It didn't stick of course and over the course of the day has turned into a steady dreary rain. The cats and I have been bed bugs all day. Haven't even gotten out of my PJs.
Can't believe how much time has lapsed since my last post. Today is the first time I've been able to sit down and try to put my thoughts and feelings into some order. In October and early November I was taking an oil painting class with some friends and also a writing class. I was really enjoying it when I developed acute bursitis in my right shoulder and had to drop out. This on the heels of a frozen left shoulder last year. I had an injection of cortisone and went through several PT sessions. Still have some discomfort but that has been the least of my concerns this last month. The end of October my sister came for a visit and we spent two days and nights with our Stepmom. We laughed and looked at old pictures and reminisced. We took a trip to Red Bluff where we used to go as kids. Little did we know that it might be the last "girls weekend" we would have. Three weeks later my 78 year old stepmother fell and hit her head and was hospitalized for evaluation. She can't remember when, where, why or how the fall happened. My sister and her fiance came down and we had Thanksgiving at my house. My emotional state was fragile after dealing with fall after math so my daughter Tara and Mary cooked a delicious meal and we were able to celebrate the day together before Bernie went into Rehab. She obviously had some sort of neurological episode and is now in the convalescent center where they are working with her on mobility and memory. My stress level has been over the top trying to make sure I am doing all I can to take care of her affairs. On top of that, we had to have her little dog put to sleep. I never knew a human being was able to produce as many tears as I have over the past three weeks. I am thankful that I have a wonderful sister so we can support one another through this.
Christmas is around the corner and I cannot rally the old Christmas cheer. I've done no shopping nor have I sent any Christmas cards. For the first time I may not. I was not going to put up a tree but my sister found an antique aluminum tree at an estate sale so I finally decided to put it up. It actually looks cute albeit a little Charlie Brownish. This is the first time EVER that we have not had a live tree. It doesn't feel right....I still may have to get a small one or may I may regret it later.
I am trying to count my blessings instead of my trials praying for a brighter New Year.
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